The humor of that statement is, of course, that without God, I would be nothing but a pile/speck of dust. The logic being that God breathed life into dust to form man. Without God, I might be the nuisance on my computer screen (although computers probably wouldn't exist...yeah, I know all about the butterfly effect, smart aleck).
But, that's not obvious to me. I'm clearly more than a pile of dust.
What IS obvious to me, though, is that I feel the most "plugged in" to God when I'm desperate. In time of desperation, I pray for God to intervene and I trust that He'll provide because I'd be screwed otherwise. I might even cut a deal with God to "help me just this time because I can't do it on my own."
And there lies the problem. If I only depend on God when "I can't do it on my own," I have clearly set myself up to believe that I don't need God when I CAN do it on my own. As if God views us as a nuisance when we can do it on our own?
For me, the feeling of self-sufficiency definitely hinders me from fully depending on God. But I'm glad. Because if I just step back a little bit, I quickly realize how insufficient I am. I realize how depraved I am. And when I replace that feeling of self-sufficiency with the feeling of depravity, I feel the beginning of breakthrough.
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