6/9 Thursday Thoughts

Scattered Thoughts on Christian Living:

It's really hard to have really good accountability.  For me...I have a way of having different friends for different topics of conversations.  With some friends, we talk basketball.  With others, we talk fantasy football.  Also, relationships (or gossip about other people's relationships).  It seems like I even have certain friends who I go to when I want to complain about a sermon or something a Christian group is doing wrong...

But in all of this...who do I go to to bear my soul to?...to share my sins with?

I feel like throughout the years, I've had many accountability partners.  And I'm grateful for the dudes who have taken on that task.  But as I get older, it gets harder to reach out to someone else and ask them to make sure I'm really living my life in a way that glorifies God.  But why is that?

Is it because I have a hard time pinpointing people who live that Godly life I want?  Or is it because I feel so un-Godly that I don't want them knowing how often I fail?

It's obvious that many Christian men...lose accountability as they get older.  They leave structures (ie youth groups) that had clear mentor-mentee; discipler-disciple relationships.  And then just become "men" with no checks and balances.  For some, they will marry women who will take on this role, BUT if I'm these women...I'm hoping that there's some other dude out there who's shares this burden of helping the man hold onto God.

There are a lot of issues that prevent solid accountability partners...many are logistical...others are prideful....

But next time we see each other...let's cut the crap.  When I die and stand before God's judgment seat, it won't be relevant that we talked about sports or girls....but maybe....just maybe...our conversation about my walk with God...really helped me love God more than I had before.